What Clock?

It’s not that I want to be married right right now, it’s that I feel that I’m getting older, my time is running out for anyone to want me and to have children. I’m determining my happiness against my biological clock rather than the One that controls my body, He determines how it ages and […]

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Jealousy and Desires

After learning so much about God’s mercy and how I don’t deserve it, (my sin deserves death not righteousness and a second chance at life) I feel this sense of entitlement in my heart. I am so excited for people steady dating, getting married, going on dates etc. but right now I feel sad about […]

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Reckless Driving and Discipline

This whole situation with my reckless driving ticket has lead me to think a lot about money, discipline and hardship. I was late doing this driving improvement course after my  car accident. The police officer charged me with reckless driving because I lost control of the car, and the judge was super lenient with me, […]

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His Devotion

God has to care more about being unified with me than whatever I did that separated me from him. When I look for him like a merchant searching for pearls he finds me and I find him. It’s like a long lost relationship that has been mended. I’m greeted with an embrace, warmth, confident smiles […]

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Grudges

I hardly see how I need mercy. I can think I do no wrong and when I do it’s rare or provoked. “Have mercy on me, O God, According to your unfailing love; According to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity And cleanse me from my sin.” Psalm 51:1-2 […]

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The Incident and Perspective

I started reading this book Hinds’ Feet On High Places by Hannah Hurnard. It’s a fictional story of someone being lead from fear to a new transformation of self. She is on a journey to the mountains that is the high places. It was so interesting how on this journey she is shown a very […]

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A Temple

Today I had a realization. If I represent Christ then I boast in Christ. If I am a part of his church then I am also apart of the kingdom and make up God’s house that Christ sits over as big brother, shepherd, Valiant friend, among other titles. I am apart of a temple so […]

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Insecurity

To Entrust. To put something into the care and protection of another. I feel that I entrust myself to what ever people around me think and not to the one who will judge me in the end. I see entrusting as committing something to someone in trust that things will be taken care of and […]

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Aha Moment 11/27

Why have I been so miserable since the incident? My heart is hard due to pride. I have a “I can go at it alone” mentality. Where is God, Who is he in my world? Do I even identify with the lowly sinful woman anymore? I always thought that the hardening of the heart was […]

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